it's been a while since i've prayed.

i remember being able to pray comfortably, not out of habit, but out of joy.  i would speak to God every minute of every day.  I'd wake up and immediately think, "well, i'm up, Father.  I have to get ready to school.  thank you so much for helping me wake up on time.  love you."  then i'd go and brush my teeth.

but somewhere along the way, i lost it.  i lost Him.

so i'm trying to work my way back to him, praying that he find me again.  or rather, pray that he give me the strength to find him again.  because he can never lose me.  he's always there - unfailingly.  i've been the one who's strayed.  i've lost him.

i miss the comfort of my Father.

he loves me still.  and he waits.

Lord, give me strength to find my way back to you again.

i'm sad.  i'm not sure why, but i am.

i wake up in the middle of night sometimes and find my pillow wet with tears.  it seems i cry in my sleep, but i'm not sure why.

maybe i was wrong.  maybe my heart hasn't healed yet.

here is my confession.  you can kill me afterwards.

i don't like the beatles.

now i must go.  good day, cap'n.  good day.

yes, the lovebug has struck again.  i am officially...  well, not in love, but googly-eyed over a boy.  not a fictional character, nor a celebrity nor a circus performer, but a real name and a real face i am familiar with.  craaaap.  this is bad.  i need to find cupid and get him to pull out the arrow that's sticking rather conspicuously from my butt.

my neighbors got a golden retriever!  i am in love with it.  it is so frigging cute!  it wags its tail until it nearly flies and when you leave, it begins to bark cause it wants you to come back and play with it.  i want a golden retriever so badly, my bones ache.

but i love tigger.  tigger is my favorite dog and he makes me happy.  but he's getting older.  i wonder what i'll do when he leaves.  i only wish pets lived forever,  cause i get really attached to my pets and when they die, the Yun household suffers an inundation, all from my tears.  like when zeingaboing died, i missed two days of school cause i cried so much, i collapsed and had to go the hospital.  intense.  and when daisy died, i started to do really badly in school.

now i'm getting sad.  i am gonna go outside and play with my dog.  it's really late but who cares?  not me!

ahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahha

*i laugh*

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh

*i scream*

eck

*i die*

i love you linda unni